This week i had my first training session since our break. Maximus has a binder of training materials, but i can’t share the references with you as Maximus has not shared the sources with me–specifically (probably because He knows i will work ahead and not at His intended pace).
Maximus collared me for our session and we sat in the living room for my training. There were several parts: List my strengths as a submissive; my weaknesses; my interpersonal skills; and miscellaneous issues.
my Strengths as a submissive
Maximus had me list my strengths (strengths as His submissive) and then He added what He felt i missed (His are listed in red).
- Educated (Masters degree)
- Good upbringing in manners and etiquette
- Good cook
- Have a serviceheart
- Computer literate
- Love sex
- Excellent upbringing in manners and etiquette
- Excellent cook
- Nontraditional skill sets (such as woodworking, construction, etc.)
- Don’t hesitate or avoid tasks
- Excellent listener
- Follow-through (timely)
- Amazing writer
my Weaknesses as a submissive
Then Maximus had me list my weaknesses (weaknesses as His submissive) and then He added what He felt i missed (His are listed in red). This was not as much fun to do as strengths!
- High expectations
- Beat myself up
- Tendency to deny oneself of the finer things as if undeserving
my Interpersonal Skills
These are the strengths and weaknesses i have in interacting with others.
- Can communicate well
- Public speaker
- Respect personal differences
- Group situations exhaust me
- Prefer a couple of really close friends rather than a bunch
- Feeling i’m not good enough/pretty enough to approach/interact with some people
Maximus instructed me to use my safewords (yellow and red) to indicate when i am struggling with a weakness during our interactions so that He clearly knows where my limits are during those times. i am required to do this to avoid raising my voice or getting angry with Him. i have done this a couple of times and it has been very helpful for us, particularly when i feel i have not been given a chance to answer His questions before He asks other ones or addresses His concerns prior to me answering.
i have gotten out of the habit of addressing Him as Sir. i need to do this when we are home and in private.
i need to learn that i do deserve the finer things. i am not to balk or question why when He gives me gifts. When instructed to purchase a specific item or service for myself, i am to do it unquestionably, with the vendor He has selected, unless we have had an agreement otherwise based upon value.
Over the past months i have refused sex at times. He allowed this when i was sick, but now that i am recovered, this must stop. i have a contractual obligation for sexual performance and must follow it.