Training Day

This week i had my first training session since our break. Maximus has a binder of training materials, but i can’t share the references with you as Maximus has not shared the sources with me–specifically (probably because He knows i will work ahead and not at His intended pace).

Maximus collared me for our session and we sat in the living room for my training. There were several parts: List my strengths as a submissive; my weaknesses; my interpersonal skills; and miscellaneous issues.

my Strengths as a submissive

Maximus had me list my strengths (strengths as His submissive) and then He added what He felt i missed (His are listed in red).

• Organized
• Educated (Masters degree)
• Good upbringing in manners and etiquette
• Good cook
• Homemaker
• Self-confident
• Have a serviceheart
• Computer literate
• Swinger
• Love sex
• Adventurous
• Empathetic
• Confidential
• Respectful
• Excellent upbringing in manners and etiquette
• Excellent cook
• Bisexual
• Professional
• Health-focused
• Disciplined
• Dedicated
• Attractive
• Feminine
• Nontraditional skill sets (such as woodworking, construction, etc.)
• Don’t hesitate or avoid tasks
• Excellent listener
• Strong
• Forceful
• Articulate
• Artistic
• Follow-through (timely)
• Amazing writer
• Anticipatory

my Weaknesses as a submissive

Then Maximus had me list my weaknesses (weaknesses as His submissive) and then He added what He felt i missed (His are listed in red). This was not as much fun to do as strengths!

• Impatient
• Stubborn
• Hot-headed
• Perfectionist
• High expectations
• Independent
• Beat myself up
• Tendency to deny oneself of the finer things as if undeserving

my Interpersonal Skills

These are the strengths and weaknesses i have in interacting with others.

Strengths:

• Confident
• Can communicate well
• Public speaker
• Friendly
• Respect personal differences
• Open
• Funny
• Non-judgmental

Weaknesses:

• Introverted
• Group situations exhaust me
• Prefer a couple of really close friends rather than a bunch
• Feeling i’m not good enough/pretty enough to approach/interact with some people

Miscellaneous Issues

Maximus instructed me to use my safewords (yellow and red) to indicate when i am struggling with a weakness during our interactions so that He clearly knows where my limits are during those times. i am required to do this to avoid raising my voice or getting angry with Him. i have done this a couple of times and it has been very helpful for us, particularly when i feel i have not been given a chance to answer His questions before He asks other ones or addresses His concerns prior to me answering.

i have gotten out of the habit of addressing Him as Sir. i need to do this when we are home and in private.

i need to learn that i do deserve the finer things. i am not to balk or question why when He gives me gifts. When instructed to purchase a specific item or service for myself, i am to do it unquestionably, with the vendor He has selected, unless we have had an agreement otherwise based upon value.

Over the past months i have refused sex at times. He allowed this when i was sick, but now that i am recovered, this must stop. i have a contractual obligation for sexual performance and must follow it.